1.18.21

"...it's strange—I feel simultaneously a heavy dissociation from life much of the time despite my efforts to maintain an awareness and a mindfulness of the present moment. It's not unlike being in a dream—everything I feel I feel with my entire being and on a grander scale than usual, but at the same time, I am seemingly irreparably detached from everything going on around me like some passive observer, a passenger at the mercy of some anonymous conductor. This isn't a tragedy by any means. It is only what is, albeit an unusual dichotomy."

-journal entry, c. 2014